expressing love to our loved ones

My Dad, and my sisters and I as kids. (don’t ask how old this pic is!)

It’s Father’s Day, and I’m thinking about my Dad and also my Abuelito (Grandfather) who passed away a few years ago, at 99 1/2!

I’m truly blessed that I have a wonderful Dad, who has always been there, and loves me unconditionally. I have to be honest, we didn’t always get along. Especially when I was younger, we didn’t have a very good relationship. I have to give him a lot of credit for putting up with me, because my life was a mess, and I don’t think I was a good daughter.

We still disagree on just about everything under the sun, but I love him heaps, and I told him that today.

Expressing love to our loved ones

I have tears rolling down my face as I’m writing this, because I just read a blog post by someone whose grandfather just passed away… and it brought back memories of my Abuelito, and all the things I wish I could’ve said to him.

Unlike the person who wrote the blog post, I didn’t get a chance to say a proper goodbye and tell him that I loved him.

I visited him in the hospital not long before he died, and as I was walking out the door of his hospital room, I said a quick goodbye but it was more like an “I’ll see you tomorrow.” I didn’t want to say goodbye, because I didn’t want to accept that his last day might be right around the corner.

Abuelito, on his 99th Birthday

He was very healthy for his age, and he looked great for being almost 100 years old. But he got sick, because as someone was trying to get him to drink some juice, some of it went down the wrong pipe into his lungs. So he got pneumonia, and that’s why he was in the hospital.

I wish I would’ve hugged him and told him I loved him a lot. I wish I would’ve told him how thankful I was, that he was my grandfather. I wish I would’ve asked him, in my terrible Spanish, if he was ready to leave this earth and meet with God. Even if he didn’t remember me (he was starting to have a hard time remembering people, including even my Mom, his daughter) I still regret not saying those things that were on my heart.

He was a truly great man, a father of 8, grandfather of 14, and great-grandfather of 15. Everyone loved him, and he was happily married for more than 60 years, until my Abuelita passed away.

In 2011, I made this tribute video and shared it on the day my Grandfather would have turned 100, had he lived 6 more months.

What have I learned?

I have learned… always tell people you love them. Especially your parents and grandparents. Don’t keep it inside, because as I know from experience, you might not always have that opportunity.

I hope that I’ll see me Grandfather again someday.

And for the rest of my life, I want to let the people I love know how loved they are, and how appreciated they are. I’m glad that I told my Dad just that today.